Where do i even begin on the subject of the mind. I had a conversation with my sister this morning about how the part of our brain that creates emotions is not the same part of the brain that is responsible for language. This is why when people ask questions about how we feel or why something or someone makes us feel a certain way, we hesitate to answer. “Why do you love your spouse? Why do you love your job?” At first, there is hesitation because we cannot quite understand why we do, but then we start to turn towards logic to help us respond. “I love my spouse because he is kind, he is honest, he is compassionate, etc. I love my job because of the benefits, the hours….etc etc.” Sometimes we really just do not know why we feel a certain way. We just cannot put into words.
This thought made me realize where my love for music originates from. Music puts words to the emotions I am feeling. I can literally always find music that relates to how I am feeling right down to my mood, the lyrics, and the beat. I have the most difficult time communicating how I feel and a song can sometimes sum it up in the span of 3-4 minutes. Amazing. The power of music just blows my mind.
My oldest sister the other day was venting to me about her day and how she was just having a rough day. Then she looks at me and I guess she noticed that I was lost in thought (which I find myself doing a lot) and she asks me, “what are you thinking about?” I respond with, “oh nothing”. She follows up with “are you sure? If there is something on your mind you can talk to me. You can talk to me about anything, you know that”. I quickly respond with, “yeah, I know, but I don’t need to talk about anything. I’m just thinking about things just like everyone else”. She then interestingly says, “yeah, everyone does, but unlike most, you never talk about it”. I thought that was a little humorous because it is true. Unless something is bothering me like crazy and it is really just eating me up inside, I do not always feel the need to dedicate anymore of my time and energy on it. Whenever she vents about something, when she is retelling the story it is like she is reliving the moment and is getting emotional/heated all over. Which makes her a great storyteller and very entertaining. It is probably safe to say she is one of the best storytellers I know. However, she does hold on to little things and she does allow many external factors to affect her emotional state, which is something I am trying very hard to fight against. Maybe the way storytelling for her allows her to release her frustration, that is what music does for me. I do not necessarily need to say it myself, but I let the words in a song flow through and allow myself to feel it.
I watched the Lady Gaga Documentary on Netflix today and before you laugh, it was actually quite interesting. There were so many takeaways that really got me thinking even after I was done watching. Throughout the entire documentary, she was so emotional. Little events to huge milestones in her career, she would just cry about everything. With a quick thought, she just seems like a typical emotional girl, but she mentions that singer/songwriters have to tap into very dark emotional places to write music. Although it is difficult, that is the only way to write truthful pure emotional music. Through the process of making music, she has to tap into her vulnerable emotional states and that is not something that can be easily turned on and off. She wears her heart on her sleeve and it is actually quite beautiful to see an individual live so openly and so vulnerably. Looks like a quick way to get your heart broken, but can you imagine the love you would attract too?
The mind is so interesting and so powerful and if we all just realized its potential, we could really get everything we want in life. Do you ever have a time when you are super frustrated with someone and then they ask you to go get something for them? Your mind becomes so fixated on how you are feeling towards that person and having to do them a favor when you really do not want to. When you go to look for that requested item, it could literally be right in front of you, but you are so angry you keep telling yourself, “I don’t know where it is. Where is it? I don’t see it. I have no idea where it is. Where is it?” The reality of it is you probably knew exactly where the item was and your eyes probably glanced over it several times, but without your mind wanting to see it, you never actually “saw it”. The power of the mind.
This is the reason why the stories we tell ourselves is so crucial. If we focus on our insecurities, negativity, and worries, that is all we will see. Let us see with our eyes and not our minds. What I mean by that is let us see life as it is and not through the blurred lens that is tainted with negativity and worry. Until we have changed our default mindset to be positive, secure, and mindful see what is in front of you. Be present and aware.
I can be somebody who views life as literally and unfiltered as possible.